I think I need a plan. I am starting to rack up thoughts, ideas, to do lists, new activities I want to start, old activities I want to continue, unfinished projects I want to finish. People to see, places to go, things to do. And, of course, I want to do it all. I need a plan.
I believe I have mentioned once or twice how much I love to plan. I love to set goals, I love to create lists and charts, to do lists. And I also love to create file systems, organize closets and drawers to help me implement all the plans I have made. I love the saying, "if you fail to plan, you plan to fail." Words to live by. I knew I was in the right place when I saw it written on the wall of the school we visited in Kenya. Everyone around the world knows the truth of that statement. The problem is...I don't like to actually follow through on the plan. That is so...tedious, so mundane, so everyday regular life. I am working on that.
One of our church's stated values is the value of a balanced life. This past week I have really been wondering what exactly that means. I thought maybe if I wrote down all I had to balance it would help me visualize better how to balance it all. Boy was that a mistake. Do you kow how long the list was? There is no possible way to balance everything on the list, it is too long.
Of course I know the sunday school answer to the problem of the balanced life, balance it on Jesus. So simple, so obvious, so not helpful. I mean conceptually I am a mature enough Christian to understand my need to start and end my day with the Lord, lay my burdons at his feet, trust him to take care of all the things on my to-do list. I have seen him work in giving me peace when I trust him with the cares of this life. But after I lay it at Jesus feet all the tasks will still be staring me in the face.
I think it is like "hope". As I posted a few months ago, when we struggled with infertility I knew I needed hope but just being told to "put your hope in the Lord" is so meaningless when you have no hope. It is conceptual not practical so there is no clear path to doing it or achieving it. There is no clear path to balancing your life on the Lord. You have to journey through it. For me with hope it was changing my thinking that created hope for me, allowing God to change my thinking. And I suspect the same will be true of balance.
So I begin the search for balance in my life. Balancing my children, my husband, my home, my ministry, my friends, my work, my healthy, my recreational activities, my workouts, my plans, goals and dreams and of course my relationship with the Lord.
One thing I love to do is read and hear about other people's journeys and ideas. Recently I heard Susie Larson speak on her new book called, Growing Grateful Kids. Future post on that to come but she has also written a book on balance and a friend of mine bought a DVD of her speaking on the topic. I am looking forward to hearing what she has to say and the path she might begin me on toward discovering balance in my life. Let the search begin!