Also, between the cold winter weather, my knee pain and life stress I somehow managed to go so long without going to the Y that they installed new curbs in the parking lot which dried and the caution tape has all be removed since I was last there (they are wrapping up a year long remodel). I haven't lifted a weight, run a mile or downward dogged in far too long. I think as everything became too busy I worried that continuing to prioritize my exercise routine over being with my family seemed a little too selfish and I unconsciously started letting it go.
But this is my last week of full time outside the house employment and today is another day and the morning was a gorgeous 65 degrees and I decided it would be nice to just get out of the house and move my body. I do love to exercise even if I let my guilt and lazy take over occasionally. And while I was on my walk/run, mostly walk, I started praying which is what I often do when I run. And listening. I started by confessing my lost connection with God and how I have felt so overwhelmed by my life the past few months I haven't known how to rest my mind and turn to God. I even wondered what to say now, on my walk, about what was happening in my life. Where am I? So I listened. And God said, "Worship". I was listening to worship music and as I turned my heart and mind to the music and the worship I realized something, that is what I always do on my runs. That is a big part of what I love about running. The connection to God I experience as I worship him while I run. Then we talk and I have clarity and peace and when I get home and open my bible or devotional book I am ready for the lessons He has for me that day. I can't run without worship and apparently I can't worship without running.
So as of today I am letting go of my guilt over my work outs. They aren't selfish acts of escape and vanity, they are acts of worship to God. They strengthen my faith and prepare me to be a better wife, mother, friend and child of God. Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
And with that I am getting SERIOUS about rehabbing this IT band injury. Because as lovely as a morning walk is I LOVE TO RUN. And there is just no reason I shouldn't be able to loosen this thing up and get back out there.
3 John 1:2 "Dear friend, I pray that you may enjoy good health and that all may go well with you, even as your soul is getting along well."
Proverbs 4: 20-22 "My son, pay attention to what I say; listen closely to my words. Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart; for they are life to those who find them and health to a man’s whole body."